We all pay the price for our “success”

Have you ever thought about what does it cost you to live the life you do? I am not speaking about the money.

Some people see me as successful in certain ways. I might, however, no one knows the price I pay.

I wake up at 4:30 am and go to the office. I then work from 5 am till 8 or 9 in the evening. People whom I share the office with, think that I live there… Seriously.

I don’t see my family. I don’t even feel that I have one. It came to the point, where neither my mother or brother would call me anymore. Very strange relationships… I don’t go home for Christmas. I can’t come to my parents and seek for comfort and compassion. My mother won’t cook a meal for me. Where is home? There is no home. Not for me.

I can’t recognize my siblings. They are all so grown up that I can’t even recognize them. There are new family members that were born while I was gone – I never even seen them. I am not part of the family.

I don’t go to my friend’s birthdays. Most of them are married – I missed all their weddings. I lost connections with 90% of the people I considered to be my friends. That’s alright. That’s expected.

I don’t party. I used to go out a lot. I used to have a lot of friends and buddies. I used to be that funny/crazy guy who enjoyed being in the center of attention. Can’t even remember the last time I went out…

I don’t have any serious relationships. I haven’t had any for the past several years. How could I? I don’t even have enough time to walk my dog because I either work or train. There is no space in my life for another human being.

We all pay the price for our “success”, whether we realize that or not. What is yours?